annoying smart@ss response #1

"Hey would you like to go out for coffee or drinks?"

....."Coffee is a drink."

SHABOW! >:D

Love Is Dead..

I adore Kerli. And her carefree attitude. Enjoy, the video gets better as you go along :-)

An..Anx...Anxiety

Yesterday and earlier today I went through a complete anxiety overload. I hate my anxiety disorder, I know I have one, and now acknowledge the fact I have one. And I'm thinking of talking to my parents to actually have me visit a psychiatrist perhaps. Can't run away from this forever, and if I don't fix this problem now, I am sure I will drive myself insane, give myself more health problems, never gain weight properly like I need to, and be the cause of breaking up with my current relationship. Which I cannot even fathom to think.
To get my thoughts together, I decided to give myself a 'day off' today from people and everyone, but so far I'm failing miserably. I've been on the dreaded slave of facebook all day and have found ways and excuses to text my boyfriend for absolutely no reason. So there's another disorder notch in my mind as well, I hate..hate..HATE to admit but I have dependecy issues. I fear rejection and lonliness so I treasure my family, close friends, and relationships a bit TOO much to the point where I don't function properly if I don't know what's going on with them. It's sickening, for a person who values independence and solitude, I have a dependency issue. fml.
I am going to find a way to fix it, but I can't do it alone. Which is why I'm okay with the idea of a psychiatrist (you should have seen me months ago when my parents suggested it, I was hysterical to say the least)
For now, I'm procrastinating terribly on all my chores. Wish I knew why, I probably..no..most likely..no...NEED TO get on that, my parents will be home in 5 hours approximately and I don't want to spend the last hour rushing things, that's not 'mature' at all -_-
Plus I want nothing to worry about at the moment besides playing my Persona 3 FES. I'm in love with that game..still..and the ps2 is currently still on and has been for 2 days straight because I disregard the responsibility to save before every big talk scene or boss fight. When will I learn?~ Anyway..
I've fixed up my blog. I like it this way. And I fixed up the profile playlist, and have decided on a final name. And I enjoy it. I kind of went old school with it, (old school in my terms..the 'old me' which was a very dramatic poetic artistic realist..and I want that back..it makes me happy.)

That's all the updates I have for today..unless I come up with more..Sorry for lack of pictures. Not much to image in this post.

-Des

Changes Real soon..

more changes will be made to this blog

still not 100% satisfied with the overall layout and the blog name

Don't worry I'm keeping the posts haha

and this blog (and URL)

just you'll be seeing changes here and there as I tinker with this thing

buhbye..dass all! :3

I gots....the money blues..I gots...

Nothing to talk about today.


I'm stuck home for the weekend. The WHOLE weekend~
And don't even feel like blog stalking people at the moment(-_-)
just one of those days~~~
I don't even feel like watching anime at the moment (weird..)
So I guess I'll just play Persona 3. Good game it is.
I had to go to my old high school early this morning, to solve some unsolved scholarship business .. and I need that for textbook money (and some left over because I'm in need of new clothing chyeah....so many people owe me money, I know I'm not gonna get it..it distresses me so. )
[I want my MONEY! (><)]
This is how I feel about my situation right now...

Chyeeeeeeee. Samuel Jackson. Trick.

Well anyway, hopefully I'll have more to talk about some other day (_-_) And on top of that..my hair looks pretty messed up righ now. It's growing finally (Thank KAMIGODALLAH..but I did cut my bangs so that's the only part short) and since it's GROWING it looks like a HOT MESS. It was cut into layers and thus, it shall grow out in layers. Eff.

That's all I gotta say.

Eff.

Cream&Sugar

-Desums~

Stressed! (><)

I has no job

I has no money

And School is coming up!~

Textbooks~~GAH (-_-)

What I really wanna do

Is buy a scooter

and ride off in the wind

just like Rainie Yang's character

in "Miss No Good"

Where my wig, barretts, and non matching clothes

will sparkle in the wind.

Just you wait...

*SparkleSparkle~~~*

Anyway...

I swallowed my pride, and applied to Mcdonald's today.

I hope I get it.

Because I want cute stuff now.

Yeah..It's about that time...(>_>)

At the same time............

I'm really sleepy. I've been out the house a bit too much. Either with boyfriend or with friend Michi, talking about the upcoming anime convention and such. I miss my friends Amby and Heather, we don't hang out often like I want to, and Amby is moving, so it's really stressful time, wish I could help (><)Less videogames and less anime(@_@). Not a happy time. Can't wait till school starts! But I am a bit sad at the same time, because my boyfriend is leaving to up north (-_-) We won't see each other often, but it's okay, I think it will work! Aza~aza fighting! (^^) And I am excited to start new college life too! haha! I'm going to try hard this year! Since I'm on scholarship and want to keep it.

That's all for now! Since I have a break, I will continue watching the anime "Hell Girl", I really like it, though it is a bit repetitive until second season. I will review on my blog soon (^^ )

Cream&sugar!

-Desums~